There are days when all the things that remind you of your present life just irritates the hell out of you and you just want to be somewhere else, someone else. Someone else not saddled with all the mundane and tedious responsibilities that accompany your usual life.
Most days you are happily going about your usual business. Thankful and blessed to have the life you have. But not on days like these when the usual things that used to make you grateful are starting to feel like an albatross around your neck. When you feel so guardedly selfish with your time you don't want to share it with nobody.
You are constantly resenting that its taking a lot out of you to be everything to everybody else. Sometimes you just want everyone to bugger off. Perfectly content with your own company and a good book or bonding with the flickering screen of your laptop. Even a message popping on your chat page is too much of a nuisance on days like these. Everything is an imposition on you. Compounding days like these is the uncomfortable feeling of your monthly unwanted visitor. And a gloomy leaden day. And then you really are Mr. Scrooge incarnate.
Thank God for Abba especially the Mamma Mia track. Now excuse me as I dance around my room and try to shake off the funk I'm in.
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